My relationship with my new piece is love-hate relationship. More accurately, it was very a loving one when we were just introduced.. In the stage of conseptualization I had these thoughts in my mind: "oh, what a lovely idea I have, this new piece will be written for an ensemble I have never wrote before (so that's an exciting challanging), it will follow the concept of "unraveled" (which is the theme for Akropolis' concert, the ensemble I'm writing for). The first sketches came fairly easy. For a rather promising beginning it seemed the piece will be written in no-time and with great pleasure. Well, this piece, as any other, started shifting almost to a state of despair when another important factor enters the equation: writing "GOOD music".
What is "good music"? Can anybody describe it? I can try to name the sensations I get when I hear a "good" piece of music (the parenthesis are here because it is toatlly subjective matter). When the auditory experience is positive I stay attentive throught the listening because I feel I am reaching some place meaningful and important. Every note seems in place and the different parts of the piece feel to me to be timed "correctly"- before it gets too expected. A "good" piece will also give me something to grab on, like a motive, a certain color, rhythm, effect that returns, etc.. It doesn't have too be "pretty" music but it has to evoke some kind of emotion from me- amusement, anxiety, fear, serene etc..
I described what I am looking for as a listener, I usually try to achieve this as a composer to satisfy "listener Florie". As a composer, "good music" is about reaction of the listener and making them stay indifferent. But, where do I get the best ingredients for my piece so I can create this magic? But since there is no clear answer how to achieve it I just have to keep practicing and choose the best options I see while writing. I hope that one day, when I am odler and wiser, it will come more easily, with only love.
Now that this pressure is off, I should get back to work ;) .
* MUSIC INSPIRATION OF THE DAY :
Emily Koh, fantastic young composer and a colleague of mine from Brandeis. Very refreshing music for this hot summer
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